i have to say, things are a lot more calm for the gigantic life change i threw upon myself than id imagined. aside from the still suspicious break in and theft of my personal belongings, i feel sane. i feel 100 pounds lighter and like a 50 ton elephant has gotten off my chest. i still can't sleep cos im paranoid at night about things that go bump- living or dead. i haven't gotten the free time i've been promised because we are still figuring out a schedule and adjusting and audrey seems to know there is change and is ..... well..... acting out a little more than usual. could just be the age she's at, but whatever. she has also grown very attached to her blankie.
i have a whole small house to clean up and reorganize and decorate, so if anyone has any good thrift stores near them that have fun stuff, let me know. i need things on the cheap!
im excited for life change, for ME time, for space, and for clarity. it's the first time in a long time i feel like myself again.