I decided I have too much on my mind and way too much to say to put in a facebook status or note so .... it was time to make a blog.
SO much has changed in my life in the past 5 1/2 months!
I have the most amazing little addition to my life, Audrey Sobrinha
and now chaos has ensued. Josh and I have work full time, a house to take care of, a pet cat, this BEAUTIFUL little girl, AND we try to have outside hobbies and alone time. Needless to say, EVERYTHING is slacking except the cat and the baby.
I also decided I want to do something with my life. I am looking into becoming a certified nursing assistant. This means more schooling and studying.... BUSIER.
I also miss jiu jitsu. Just 2 years ago I was on a podium getting my first place medal for nationals. I was in the best shape of my life, the smallest I've been since I was 16, and I was working toward something. Now I feel trapped in a mundane cycle with no escape. I have no time to get my body back to where I want it, no time for ME to explore things that I want to do and learn. Josh works late two days a week so I take care of Audrey alone, then Thursdays, Saturdays and Sundays are jiu jitsu days. I just feel trapped into taking care of housework, workwork, and mommy work. I want a haircut, and a massage and a few days to myself to go jogging and get some new clothes....
Josh said that whenever I want to go out, he'll take care of the baby, but we are always busy or he is always busy so there's never really any time for me.
That's why I'm hoping just to get a nursing job, work some overnights in a hospital and have some day time for ME. There's my hope.
That's all for now from one tired, worn out mommy.