Thursday, October 21, 2010

the rambling mind of a momma

"There is a fair amount of circumstantial evidence that chronic emotional stress can be associated with heart disease and early death. ....It appears that the unrequited fight-or-flight reaction, if it occurs often enough and chronically enough, may be harmful.....  We also know that the surge in adrenaline caused by severe emotional stress causes the blood to clot more readily, increasing the risk of heart attacks."

i need to slow down.  honestly.  i have the creepiest of dreams, can't sleep, panic, my heart is just nonstop... there's so much to do and not enough hours in the day to do it.  i have learned to make audrey my priority and play with her first, but then im left with a train wreck of a house to conquer alone since josh has to work late a few nites a week... this is on top of me working 35 hours a week and shleping to and from day care.

i am so tired of having to be "on."  sometimes i just want to lay in bed, not get up, and not take care of anyone.... i feel frumpy and haggard, ive got bags under my eyes, and i really am thinking they need a coffee delivery service....

i worry though that my constant "go go go go" lifestyle that one day i might collapse for real.  xanax anyone?

4 comments:

  1. I totally relate to this! This past week I felt like I was going to break down a few times. Whenever I feel that way, I kindly ask Danny to take the reigns (AKA: watch the baby) while I
    1. Go to a coffee shop and do whatever
    2. Take a bath, listen to soft music
    3. Take a nap
    4. Go on a walk
    5. Exercise

    Even if its only 15 minutes, somehow I feel a little saner afterwards! Us mommies need a break too :) Hope you get a rest soon!

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  2. I feel like that often and I'm not even working all day! Someone told me recently to pick ONE thing around the house that it easy to do that helps you feel like you're somewhat on top of things. I chose the dishes. If my dishes are done and my kitchen clean, I feel like I'm not going to go insane. = )

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  3. actually i had josh watch audrey yesterday so i could go on a target run (which is always calming for some reason) and then i stopped off and got a very sugary coffee beverage (which is totally unnecessary but it made me feel good)...

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