it's almost been a month and i have to say i couldn't be happier. i am so glad the events in my life transpired how they did. sure, 2 months ago i wouldn't have thought that i'd be feeling this way but i feel amazing and am glad for what happened. sir that i thought was my dorky boy robot, no. no you are very much not. you are far from what i want and need. boy that i stopped talking to for three months .... hanging out with said boy has been amazing. three months ago this person was someone so different. this person was not who i know now and i cant get enough of who i know now. the problem is that i want to stay guarded. i want to keep my walls up and be safe so i dont get hurt again but every time im with him they start to fall and im hanging on brick by brick to keep them in place. he asked some pointed questions that i am trying to ignore so as not to entertain this lofty dream that could quite possibly be. for once tho, i am willing to just let life go and happen as it may. i am happy with this slow and steady course. i dropped the L bomb the other night and he did last nite. but i don't think i regret it. i do love him. i love how he has changed and i love how much he loves his family and puts them before himself. i love that he is creative and sensitive and sweet. i love that he is simple. i love his taste in music. i love his goofy dance moves. i love that he will shamelessly dance party it up when EVERYONE is watching. i love this quote by dr seuss because i don't do the whole gushy chick flick, "iminloveandneedthissappyromantictitledordeal...." no.