there have been very few days where i have gotten it right- where that looming, gut tightening feeling is actually something i should have listened to.
for example, the day i knew i shouldnt drive josh's truck to work and it broke down on n 26th and penn ave n and i was late for work and stuck in a not so great neighborhood while it was snowing....
or the day i knew josh was getting fired....
today just has that feeling. i can't explain it, but i know something is going to happen. it feels awkward and heavy.
i hope im just being an overtired basketcase.
my stomach hurts though. it hurts, churns, and feels like it is in 1,000 different varieties of knots.
i feel nervous. im anticipating the worst of the worst.
hello world, my name is debbie downer.