these scars upon my knees

my head is aching from the words
you've beaten in my brain
my body's tired from the blood
lost and down the drain

all these crazy thoughts
have led me to believe
i'm better off on my own
than to keep on listening

do i go down with the ship
or jump before it sinks?
my mind's racing in the moment
no time left to think
 i've forgotten how to swim
and the fear envelopes me
either way im going down
to the bottom of the sea

and every kiss feels
like an empty page
stained with the words
you feel you have to say

and every touch feels
like a slap to the face
stinging with resentment
full of hurt and pain

do i go down with the ship
or jump before it sinks?
my mind's racing in the moment
no time left to think
 i've forgotten how to swim
and the fear envelopes me
either way im going down
to the bottom of the sea

i try to run away from this
but fall on everything
it's hard to run far from this
with these scars upon my knees